Anonymous asked: day in and day out im thinking of ending it all. i've recently broken up with my girlfriend and i don't know how to be happy anymore. what do i do? ive seen the psychiatrist twice. ive tried thinking that there are people worse off than me. ive tried spending time with family. friends. nothing's helping. im still so miserable. so depressed. what do i do? i need help

Sometimes it’s not about being physically in-touch with people around you. There are times that you just need to be by yourself. Reflecting. Looking back. Praying. I’ve been there (but not because of a breakup). Thinking that it’s just a never-ending black hole, crying your eyes out just so you could fall asleep. But I figured, no matter how much people try to help me, it’s still up to me whether I’ll accept it or not.

Whether I’ll help myself or not.

I know this may sound off to some people, maybe you too. But it’s always going to be your choice if you want to be happy or not. 

I got tired of crying, pitying myself, and being miserable. I told myself "This isn’t me. Whatever I’m feeling, it’s not going to break me and put me down. I’ll win over this." And I did.

I reflected on what my life was like. I forgave myself for all the things I thought was my fault. I forgave the people who hurt me, even if they weren’t sorry. I put behind me all that is negative. And I moved on. I chose to look at the good things about my life. How I can improve myself, and what I wanted my life to be like. And I prayed. I prayed to Him to guide me, to heal me and to help me understand all that is around me. I overcame it. And you will too.

Ending your life won’t solve anything. 

One thing I learned over the years was, there will always be that person who looks up to you or sees you as an inspiration no matter what the circumstances are. Remember that there are people who love you and look up to you. With you gone, you’ll just break their hearts and their spirits.

Be strong. Not just for yourself, but also for the people you love and for those who look up to you. Because no one will love them, inspire them like you do.

I’ve always believed in this saying,

"What doesn’t kill you, only makes you stronger."

Prove to everyone and more importantly, to yourself, that this is true.

Anonymous asked: Do you tend to like more butch girls that femmes? What's your type?

Wow. It’s been awhile since I last got a question like this. HAHA. Hello! I’m so sorry it took awhile to answer this. I’ve been preoccupied with work. 

Hmm well I wouldn’t say I like butch or femmes. It’s really hard to define but I guess someone in between. In gender-color, a purple would be the easiest way to say it. :)

"Everything happens for a reason." All of the trials, difficulties and obstacles that slap us in the face may seem to weaken us. But it is always up to us whether we choose to get beaten down or to rise above every possible circumstance that challenge our very core. I’m happy that despite everything, you chose the right decisions that allowed you to stand where you are now. You chose to rise above life’s challenges and come out stronger and better. This wasn’t just a celebration of a mere 4.0. But it was a celebration of every triumphant victory you’ve ever had as well as finding yourself amidst all the rubble. I love you baby girl! I’ll always be here for you. Through thick and thin. ♥ #friends #bff #bestfriends #love #life #college #tgif  (at Aracama)

"Everything happens for a reason." All of the trials, difficulties and obstacles that slap us in the face may seem to weaken us. But it is always up to us whether we choose to get beaten down or to rise above every possible circumstance that challenge our very core. I’m happy that despite everything, you chose the right decisions that allowed you to stand where you are now. You chose to rise above life’s challenges and come out stronger and better. This wasn’t just a celebration of a mere 4.0. But it was a celebration of every triumphant victory you’ve ever had as well as finding yourself amidst all the rubble. I love you baby girl! I’ll always be here for you. Through thick and thin. ♥ #friends #bff #bestfriends #love #life #college #tgif (at Aracama)

"Smart girls are the overthinkers, the insecure ones, the different ones. They know what the real world is like. They analyze every little thing in life. Why? To avoid getting hurt. To find happiness. They stay up at night trying to think about every possible situation to get through all the problems. They think too much. They trust fewer people. Their insecurity proves their respect toward themselves. Of course they try to live away from a drama-filled life. Smart girls know their worth. Now those are the ones worth keeping by your side."

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"If all insects on Earth disappeared, within 50 years all life on Earth would end. If all human beings disappeared from the Earth,
within 50 years all forms of life would flourish."

Jonas Salk

Biologist 

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Do not judge me when you don’t even know my demons and despair.

Tired. Too tired with life.

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""Democracy… while it lasts is more bloody than either aristocracy or monarchy. Remember, democracy never lasts long. It soon wastes, exhausts, and murders itself. There is never a democracy that did not commit suicide." - John Adams"

"But beyond that strength and those laughter, she weeps away her loneliness and pain."

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Printed and distributed, 1991

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